For the first time in nearly 15 years, I am entirely un-medicated. This physical sobriety includes the absence of everything from antidepressants to alcohol, birth control hormones to marijuana. I guess I’m not 100% sober as I am now on my 3rd cup of coffee and it’s only 1:17pm, but a girl’s gotta have one thing.
I’ve been eliminating contaminants for around three years and have finally cut the last one: hormonal birth control. I switched from the Mirena IUD to the Paraguard (copper/non-hormonal).
Now I have nothing to blame my ‘crazy’ on, or, maybe I now have everything to blame my ‘crazy’ on… I’m not sure.
All I know is that it’s time to hear myself think.
I don’t plan on being quite this sober forever. I’m simply going through a period where I need to know that what I’m feeling is real and not the result of too many chemicals bumping into each other.
The Cliff’s Notes version of day one of my relentless sobriety is this: Absolute, painful, painstaking, call-your-annoying-neighbor-because-you-don’t-know-what-else-to-do boredom.
Does anyone really survive an un-medicated life??? Send help please.